Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Is it?

Is it supposed to be so hard?

To push through.
To make sure my mask doesn't slip.
To make sure that it all stays hidden away.
To keep face.
To hold the facade up.
To act my part.
To reconstruct the walls I thought would never break.
To get back what I lost.
To put the pieces back together.
To find all those pieces.
To lock up my thoughts in a box again, and hide the key that I vowed never to give to anyone, but did.
To keep my smile.
To watch someone else enjoy what was once mine.
To lose graciously.
To find, to fix.

Is it supposed to be so hard?



Akanksha Arya said...

It is. Always is.
To do a lot more than love. :)
And the alliteration thing, pulled off ! :)

Ayesha said...

It shouldn't be :)

And thank you.

Nikita said...

DISAGREEE (finally i was actually starting to think this may never happen again!)
Love aint soo hard.
Misconstructed love is.

Ayesha said...

@ Nikita - What may never happen again?

And I think I agree. It's this twisted perception of love that makes things difficult. I think.

TeNsEiGa To Me said...

Why twist, is all i ask, is wht keeps me scratchin my head - dnt we love anyway?
The heart of the emotion is the same, methinks...

liked this a lot..

Ayesha said...

@ kavya - why is question no one can ever answer. And thank you :)