Which is worse?

A life never lived or a life wasted?
Opportunities never had or opportunities squandered?
Potential that was never allowed to be fulfilled or potential that was lost?
Dreams never followed through or dreams had and broken?
Families never made or families pushed away?
Love that never bloomed or love that was allowed to wither?
Houses never built or houses gone to ruin?

Which is worse?
Life lost young or life going on too long?

Happy birthday, you :)

Another year, another post.

It's been a long year, this last one. And an extremely quick one too. It's 2014 June already. Where in hell did the time fly?

I've learnt a lot in the last year. Had lots of good days. And lots of bad days. And learnt that people change, distance is sometimes just too much, friendships evolve and that sometimes, people just grow up and move on.

We barely talk. We barely meet. We don't have crazy video chats. There are no long walks, no cups of coffee while curled up in an ancient blue sofa.

You know what? It's funny, but I realised that I only drink coffee at work or in cafes/restaurants. Rarely, if ever, at home. I was always making the coffee and watching people I love drink it. Anyhoo, I digress.

Our friendship has changed. We have changed. You have your people, I have mine. You have your life, your loves, your family and I have mine.

But over the last year I also learned not to delude myself into believing that people will stick around for you. But we'll always have each other. Because I never learnt how to properly let go.

So here's to us. To our love for words and each other. For a birthday tradition that we have both vowed to keep at, for better or for worse.

Happy birthday, beloved gopher. I know underground is cozy, but pop up and say hello more often :)

Love and lots of Ayesha hugs.