My latest poem..

I wrote this poem last night. Apparently my poetry comes out at night :D It's a lot of incoherent mumbo jumbo nonsense... I'm undecided as to whether I like it or not. I like a line or two but....

My mind is a maze
Only I hold
The key to its door.
Enter at your own risk.
The walls I build
Only I have the power
To destroy.
Those who manage
To tear down my walls,
Leave an indelible mark
On who I am,
And make me build
Stronger defenses
Higher walls..

I fear to open
The trapdoor to my memories
Long suppressed fears
Hidden doubts
Buried weaknesses,
Stowed away
Longing to break free
To consume and vanquish
Like a wild forest fire
Every question
Fuel to feed the growing flame.

People don't see
The battles I fight within my mind
Fires that rage within my soul
Covered beneath a mask of gaiety and joy..

My will power
My humanity
Stands
A lone flickering candle
Ready to go out
With a tiny gust of wind.

My smile hides the
Pain and fear within
The crumbling sadness
The overpowering loneliness..

The fire continues to rage
Consuming all it sees,
I can feel it eating away
At my consciousness
I know people can't see the flame smoldering in my eyes
I fear the day
When it will win the battle
and defeat
The core I fight to save.